one month in the books

Well my friends the first month of 2011 is already at its end. For me it has been a rough month. I have been totally stressed out with my mom and financially worried. I have been worried about the baby because I have had to pull at my mom a lot this month. Her colostomy bag is worse than ever and honestly I have never gotten sick changing it until this month. I feel bad because I stand there gagging and I know it makes her feel bad. Her surgery to hopefully reverse it is next week!! I just pray things go smoothly and she pulls through the surgery okay. I go Wednesday for my ultrasound. I am having a NT ultrasound and lab work to determine the baby's risk for down syndrome. I am so nervous but I need to see that her or his little heart beat is still going strong. I wish I was far enough along to feel movement so I would know things are ok. I have felt a couple of flutters but that is it. I am so tired of stress and just long for a relaxing week. I don't think I will get one of those for awhile. We are moving on March 1st and it is in the next county. The kids are excited but a little upset because they will have to switch school systems. I don't like that but I love the house. It's big enough for all of us and the baby even has it's own room. Shew, it is nasty here this morning. One of those days you just wanna go back to bed. It is a rainy Monday. I have to get the kids to the eye doctor today and go get boxes to start packing things up. We ordered the girls some bunk beds and they will be here Wednesday. I'm really looking forward to just starting over. I hope things really start looking up. I told myself 2011 would be better and I hope I was right. Posted a few of the pics my cousin took for me. She is such a sweetie. Gonna take two more sessions before the baby comes. I will post more everyday. Well, everyone have a good day and try to stay dry. Peace, Love, & Daisies!

week 10 update

Baby's Officially a Fetus!

Call it baby's first real graduation day: At the end of this week, your baby will officially become a fetus, a title bestowed now that he's completed the most vital building-block steps in his development. No longer a little embryo, your little guy is poised for a serious growth spurt since his kidneys, intestines, brain, and lungs are all in place. Your baby's fingers and toes (which started out slightly webbed together) will separate into their tiny 10 fingers and 10 toes this week. The bones that make up the skeleton will also begin to harden. And (genius in the making!) baby's brain is producing 250,000 neurons every minute! More developments: Your baby's eyelids are no longer transparent, and his kidneys are starting to produce urine. Tooth buds (the precursors to his actual pearly whites) are forming now. Because he's all curled up in the eponymous fetal position, it's hard to get an exact assessment of his height. That's why experts use the crown-rump measurement -- the distance from the top of his head to the bottom of his bum. Right now your baby's crown-to-rump length is about 2-1/2 inches and he weighs about half an ounce.

What a Great Day

Today has been a good day...why? I have been so worried about my lil punkin due to all of the stress I'm under with my mom and issues at home. I kept thinking all this stress can't be good on the baby. I had an appointment with my Obgyn today and it went great. I got to hear the baby's heartbeat!! I was so relieved when the nurse found it. She couldn't find it at first and said it was probably cause I am still early. After a couple of circles around my belly I heard a wonderful thumping. 177 beats per minute...wow! A complete weight off of my shoulders. Well, it looks as if God is shaking a big ole feather pillow on us right now. It is snowing yet again here in the beautiful bluegrass state. I don't think Kentucky has ever gotten this much snow in one year. It's crazy...but beautiful. I'm glad I went to the store today or we would have been eating snow cream for days. The picture above is of my Jaylee bug of course. She makes my world go around. She is truly my best friend. She hasn't been the picture of health since she was born and I have been so worried about her here lately. She manages to be sick at least two times a month. We had her tonsils out last year due to her having strep throat 8 times in one year and mono two times. She has had UTI's since she was three weeks old. She is constantly under the weather. I took her to the doctor on Tuesday and had blood work ran. We are currently waiting on results...very hard to wait on! Keep us in your thoughts and prayers!! Well I am gonna go see if it is possible to get my door open through the mountain of snow outside...Peace, Love, and Daisies!

Week 9 update

Baby's Reproductive Organs

This week, your baby gets the goods she'll need to, well, make her own baby one day. That's right, reproductive organs begin to form now, as well as some other key organs, like the pancreas and gallbladder. Your baby's head, which is about half the length of her entire body, is tucked down toward her chest. Her tiny fingers are growing longer, and the ends are slightly enlarged right now -- this is where those unique fingerprints will ultimately form. Plus, she's doubled in size again. She's about an inch long now!

By now your baby's getting all her nourishment through the placenta, a flat, spongy organ attached to the uterine wall that is covered with wavy masses of capillary-filled tissue called chorionic villi. Oxygen and valuable nutrients from that soup and salad you ate for lunch ultimately pass through these blood vessels and into the umbilical cord. And the same system carries wastes away from her body. Also, since the placenta and chorionic villi are made up of the same genetic material as the baby, they can help identify chromosomal abnormalities like Down syndrome, or genetic diseases like Tay-Sachs disease, and cystic fibrosis (which is why tests to detect these things start up soon).

Shew...week nine is here already!! I hope this time keeps going by quickly. I am so ready for summer to be here. I have decided to make this the best summer ever. I'm planning on enjoying this pregnancy to the fullest. I want to take the girls to the park and swimming. Can't wait for sunny days kicked back eating lots of ice cream. I have decided to quit dwelling on everything that is going wrong and start focusing on being truly happy with what I have. Life deals us all a different hand and what we do about it is our decision. Well the kids are at home from school today due to snow so I need to go be a mommy

Preggo pics

Well, still growing like a baby calf!! I'm already huge so I can only imagine what I'm gonna look like in a few months. It's 5:30 in the morning and I have already been up for over an hour. I can't sleep because I have been on potty patrol all night. I seem to think my bladder has shrunk to the size of a peanut. I'm so ready for this week to be over...don't know why. I am just wishing my life away I guess. I do have somewhat of the blues though. I want summer to get here cause I am in dire need of some vitamin D. I need some good ole sunshine to brighten me up. I can't wait to put on a bikini and let my belly hang out, lol! I plan on swimming the summer away. I've even considered a water birth....however I'm not that brave. Without an epidural I would choke Kyle and probably end up on the psych ward for a few weeks. Oh well, guess I will suffer through these last few months of winter...but I will daydream of beautiful sunny days with 80 degree weather!! Good day mate....peace love and daisies!! ( I added the first pregnancy pic I took just a few weeks ago to compare)

Mexican Food...a no no

I made a very unwise decision today. After hours of dealing with a craving for mexican food...I decided to give into my "not good for me" desires. I grabbed my 19 yr old, jumped in the car, and headed for pure bliss (or so I thought). Not a good idea at all. I should have known that I would get in a fight with nausea and it would win. No more mexican food....well not until this punkin makes its debut into the world. As I lay here my stomach is still turning at the mere rememberance of nacho fajita supreme. Kyle isn't here to hold my hair and rub my back so I'm fighting as hard as I can not to regurgitate. Seems he is the poster boy for pregnant mom supporter!!! I also had a hankering for chocolate milk so on the way home I stopped and bought a quart. I had it chugged before I reached my driveway. This road to destruction has got to stop. I have to get ahold on my cravings at some point. I realized I had a problem when I was arguing with my oldest and right in the middle of it I yelled..."just hush and get me a cupcake"!! She laughed until she cried. I realized how addicted to food I sounded. So, I am admitting I have a problem and I'm gonna do my 12 steps to conquer it!! Yeah, we will see.

8 Weeks In

How your baby's growing:

New this week: Webbed fingers and toes are poking out from your baby's hands and feet, his eyelids practically cover his eyes, breathing tubes extend from his throat to the branches of his developing lungs, and his "tail" is just about gone. In his brain, nerve cells are branching out to connect with one another, forming primitive neural pathways. You may be daydreaming about your baby as one sex or the other, but the external genitals still haven't developed enough to reveal whether you're having a boy or a girl. Either way, your baby — about the size of a kidney bean — is constantly moving and shifting, though you still can't feel it.

So, I am getting really excited...however I don't really "feel pregnant" now. My morning sickness is getting better and I seem to have a little more energy. I worry that something is wrong all of the time. I can't wait to get back to the doctor to make sure. I am a little paranoid I guess, lol. I have read every pregnancy book I can get my hands on and read everything on the internet. You would think this is my first rodeo....but I should be a pro at this by now. Kyle is losing his mind already...I am so moody and ill and I take it out on him. He tries so hard to keep me happy...it's a little sad. I feel bad but I can't control these crazy emotions. I feel like the exorcist takes over my body and I have no control of the stuff that spews from my mouth. Somedays I even think my head is gonna do the whole 360 degree thing. My cravings for Sonic chili cheese fries is becoming uncontrollable. I have them for breakfast, lunch, and supper...lol!! Just finished off an order about 30minutes ago. Yeah, I'm on a roll...a roll to about a 60lb weight gain. I have decided as soon as its warm enough outside I'm gonna start walking so at least I have some good intentions. Well I must pull myself from the couch and take these pjs off. I need to at least TRY to do something productive today. So goodbye friends. Have a wonderful day....Peace Love Daises!!

Happy Birthday Jacob

17 years ago today I was in the back of an ambulance praying that I made it to the hospital in time. I thought EMT's were trained in delivery babies but I guess not. The look on the poor guys face and the fact that he was pounding on the window and screaming at the driver to hurry up was a big indicator that he had no clue!!! It was the blizzard of 94....no electricity and snow knee deep. No one could get anywhere and of course my child decides it's his time to make his beloved entrance into this world. The ambulance drive...not so fun but worth getting to the hospital and seeing my son's face for the first time. It's been a wonderful 17 years. Christopher has always been my quiet, big hearted, loving child. Not a minute of trouble out of him. I'm extremely proud of him and can't wait to see what he makes of himself. He has big dreams of heading to Georgia and becoming a lawyer. We had his birthday dinner on Sunday and I had an awesome time with the kids and his girlfriend. So, 2011 is on a roll...already 4 days into it. I have been thinking a lot about how to make this year a great one. I know we can't choose the hand we are dealt and sometimes have to just roll with the punches. I just know this year has to be better than last year. I've decided to make a list and try my hardest to achieve every goal I set on it.....but if I don't then not to be too hard on myself. So here it goes:
1. Thank God everyday for all the blessings he has given to me
2. Start back to school and make awesome grades
3. Give myself at least 30 minutes of me time everyday
4. Give up my cokes entirely
5. Carry a healthy and happy baby
6. Learn more patience with my kids
7. Take a mini vaca....get away for one weekend
8. Have date night once a month with Kyle
9. Strive to be more optimistic and not so pessimistic
10. Move to a new place...maybe out of state
11. LEARN TO FORGIVE AND RELEASE
12. Get my final tattoo, lol....a beautiful owl (okay so this one is just for fun)
That's what I have planned.....and I'm striving to do before the end of 2011. Everyone needs to try and find the beauty in living....

Happy New Year

2010 is gone! Thank goodness cause it sure was a roller coaster of emotions for me. This time last year I was thinking...2010 is gonna be a great year and it wasn't even close. The major things things that happened in my life were my mom's tragic car accident and meeting the love of my life. Although most of 2010 was a struggle for me I did meet Kyle. He stood by me through so many sad struggles and he made me believe in myself. So, I'm not gonna say 2011 is gonna be better or be a perfect year but I am gonna take it a day at a time and roll with the punches. I'm definitely gonna make changes in myself for the better. I'm gonna try my best to turn my pessimism into optimism. I'm gonna try to get my emotions into check. I am returning to school to get my bachelors in behavioral sciences. I am gonna be a new person. I am looking forward to meeting my lil punkin this year also. I'm not a perfect person but I strive to be perfect so I am not gonna be so hard on myself anymore....especially when I can't achieve what I want. So, goodbye 2010 and hello 2011! I'm ready for what you got...so bring it on!