Merry "White" Christmas!!! Wow 2010 finally gave us a beautiful snow covered day to celebrate Christmas. I have wanted a white Christmas forever. It is absolutely beautiful. I have so much to be thankful for this year. God spared my mom and she is sitting here with us. My kids are healthy and happy, and we found out that we will have a little punkin next August. The kids had a wonderful Christmas!! They opened tons of new stuff. Jaylee got her DSI and has not put it down. Everyone is happy. It is just a wonderful time of the year...although the months leading up to that day is stressful. I was so worried about everything with mom being sick. I didn't think the kids would have anything...but like always God makes a way. Gettin ready to go to Kyle's grandparents and "try" to enjoy some good home cooking and lots of dessert!! The reason I say try is because I am having the worst nausea of my life with this pregnancy. Well, Merry Christmas!!

Meet our Lil Punkin

We had our first ultrasound today and our first official baby doctor visit. I was so nervous but things went well. We got to see our lil punkin for the first time. It was such a relief to see the little heartbeat. I have been so stressed out taking care of mom and I was so worried things were gonna fall apart. Hopefully I will continue to have a happy and healthy pregnancy. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve so I'm gonna run and get the rest of the presents wrapped. I hope everyone has a great night!

It Won't Go Away

I have become best friends with my toilet bowl here lately!! I love to hug it several times a day. NOT REALLY...but the nausea and vomiting is really getting the best of me. Just why do they call it "morning" sickness when it hits at all times through out the day??? I have already started the old craving thing and my belly is already protruding out of my pants. I feel like I'm at least 5 or 6 months along. I wish I was. I hope this moves along quite quickly. I have my first appointment with Dr. Gass tomorrow and also an ultra sound. I am so excited to see my lil punkin. I'll post a pic as soon as I can. I just hope all is well and the baby is healthy. I've read so many articles online about pregnancy and birth. It's been 9yrs since I experience it and I worry about everything. My age is my main concern. I feel like I am too old to be attempting this but it's what we wanted and we got it. I guess I will put on my big girl panties and deal with it. Goodnight everyone. Peace, Love, and Daisies my friends.

Let It Snow

Its absolutely beautiful outside today. It's snowing although it isn't really sticking. I wish it would snow a foot. It's been a near perfect day...notice the "near". I love lazy days so much. However I am starving!!! This baby is taking everything I have. All I wanna do is sleep, eat, and pee. Forgot how it was to be with child. I'm watching my Steelers play today and they are winning!! Yay! I'm gonna make sure my punkin is a Pittsburgh fan. I've tried to talk Kyle into moving to Pittsburgh but no luck so far. That's okay though...as long as Kyle and my kids are by my side I will be fine. Well, just wanted to post a little bit today. Guess I will get back to my football.

rainy days

Don't you love these rainy days? I love rain when I can just stay home and lay on the couch being lazy. It's almost a complete feeling of peace right now. I'm in my p.j's on the couch watching tv. The rain is falling at a steady pace and it's just cold enough that my heated blanket feels perfect. The Christmas tree lights are sparkling and the smell of sweet vanilla feels the room. It is so quiet...Kyle is gone to pick up Kenna, the kids are in their rooms playing, mom is napping, and I am but for five minutes...in HEAVEN. Why can't there be more time like this??? Well, my tummy is growing quite quickly!! Lisa (at the dr.) told me since this is my fourth pregnancy that I will show quicker. I am!!! I can literally feel my tummy stretching. I couldn't sleep at all last night because my back was hurting so badly. I have heartburn non stop. I just wonder how the next 8months is gonna be. I am literally a nervous wreck thinking about labor!!! Kyle told his mom today about the baby...I was so worried how she would take it but he said she wasn't mad at all. Shew....relief. Now...to decide if and when to tell my mother. She has never understood me or how I live. She is very judgemental of me. I am 37 and still afraid of what she thinks. Kinda sad I know. Maybe closer to time I will tell her. Oh me..well I guess it is time for a nap. Perfect timing.

Ready for the Journey

Well last night was horrible!! I had nausea all evening and was so sleepy I couldn't hold my eyes open. I felt terrible. I sure hope the whole nine months aren't gonna be like this. I have an appointment tomorrow at the Health Dept. to get my due date. I'm thinking around August...which sounds SO FAR AWAY!! Kyle is being wonderful. He is so happy. He is treating me like a baby. Couldn't ask for a better man. I just hope we can manage to find him a good job and make ends meet. The money thing is my main concern. I don't doubt his daddy skills at all. On another note...my mom is much better. I would say at least 75% and she is back to being as hateful as she can be. The last three days I have wanted to pull my hair out. I hate to say it but I will be so glad to find her an apartment and get my life back to some normalcy. Only a few weeks til Christmas....I haven't bought anything. I really haven't had the money too. I need to get me another job and get back to the real world. Well, hope you all have a great day!! Peace, Love, and Daisies!!!

New Baby :0)

Well, I took a home pregnancy test yesterday and it was positive! Guess Kyle and I are gonna be parents....again. I'm so nervous about it because of my age and the fact that we will be the "brady bunch". Scares the crap outta me. Kyle has been so happy and is already planning on building on to the house or moving. I suppose the blog from now on will cover my pregnancy and birth. I'm guessing the baby will be due in August. I hope I can do this, lol....guess it's too late to think I can't.