The Bryants

Well today was our wedding day. Today Kyle and I became one. I have waited for this day seems like forever. We were actually late to our own wedding..haha. When we got there everyone else had already arrived...but I just had to get my hair fixed! We didn't plan a big wedding or really invite anyone. We just wanted to say our vows and get it over with. We had the ceremony performed at Concord Church...outside. We actually walked down to the creek and did it creekside. It was so pretty there and very peaceful. My best friend Heather was my witness and Kyle's best friend Jason was his. We had my sweet cousin Heather take the pics. Other than that it was the preacher, Heather's kids, and Jaylee there...no one else. As I stood there looking into Kyle's eyes I knew this was FOREVER. He is the most awesome guy I have ever met. I stood there and memories began to flood my brain. I remembered the first day I saw him at Joy's house, the first night he came to my house (and held me while I cried over mom), the night he proposed sitting on our bed, the nights he got up out of bed and helped me change and care for mom, the look in his eyes when he gazes at me....so many more memories....too many to mention. I just felt in my heart that he was sent to me. I wasn't looking for him when he found me. I really had decided to just quit and give up on ever finding true love and happiness. When I reached that point he came into my life. I remember a conversation we once had. We were really talking about love and life. I had expressed how I had been hurt so many times and I was just scared. He took my hands in his, looked into my eyes, and said I promise...if you fall I will catch you. He did just that and he has carried me since then. He has been my stability, my rock, my best friend, and now he is my husband. I look forward to sharing the rest of our lives together. I look forward to sharing everything with him and raising our daugther together. I really couldn't ask for a better man to be my husband. He proved to me that there really are still good guys in this world. A man that cares about his family and friends more than he does himself....that is Kyle. I don't know why things happen in this life. I will never be able to explain the sadness or chaos of life but I know that when he entered my world it made those things seem so small. For all the sadness I have endured Kyle was my gift. I love him with all of my heart and soul!!

Kiss me and you shall see stars, love me and I'll give them to you.

Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.

Love is known best by the blind, for it is meant to be known by the heart, not by the eyes.


Love is patient, love is kind, love never ends.

A Big Scare

Tonight I started having some cramping and bleeding. Kyle and I took off to the hospital. They admitted me overnight and ran some tests. They also did another ultrasound just to check on the baby. Turns out we are okay just have to go on bedrest for awhile. The placenta being so low can cause things like this to happen. Doesn't change the fact that I am worried sick now! I'm afraid to move actually. I was so scared we were going to lose the baby. Guess things are going to have to change at home. I have been pulling at mom and trying to take care of her plus taking care of the house and chasing all of the kids. The daily grind at my house is a bit crazy. I'm sure things will be okay...just gotta stay positive.

Summer Days

Summer Sun by Robert Louis Stevenson
Great is the sun, and wide he goes
Through empty heaven with repose;
And in the blue and glowing days
More thick than rain he showers his rays.

Though closer still the blinds we pull
To keep the shady parlour cool,
Yet he will find a chink or two
To slip his golden fingers through.

The dusty attic spider-clad
He, through the keyhole, maketh glad;
And through the broken edge of tiles
Into the laddered hay-loft smiles.

Meantime his golden face around
He bares to all the garden ground,
And sheds a warm and glittering look
Among the ivy's inmost nook.

Above the hills, along the blue,
Round the bright air with footing true,
To please the child, to paint the rose,
The gardener of the World, he goes.

Oh those long summer days! I love to sit and just think back to when I was young and free! When I was a kid we ran the neighborhood from sun up to sun down. Our parents didn't have to worry about someone grabbing us. The only time we went in was to eat and to go to bed. We would ride our bikes to town to get slushies and gum. The gas station down the road had those cool pretend candy cigarettes and paper dolls!! I bought those once a week. We would put on our bathing suits and play in sprinklers or knee high pools. We played hide and seek and freeze tag at dusk until bedtime. Certain nights we just threw up a tent and everyone slept under the stars. Time stood still on those days of summer! I just wish they could have never ended! I had my parents, my brother, my sense of security. Now being an adult having to be responsible and pay bills just sucks. I wanna run free again...be young again. I posted a couple pics of my girls enjoying summer and being kids. I hope they cherish these days as much as I did!

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

It is April and the weather here is gorgeous! The kids love to play outside and I love to sit outside and be lazy!! Making memories is the perfect thing to do every chance you get! Love the pic of Jay and her friend Madison being silly girls. Takes me back....way back! I sure miss those days when I was young and didn't have a care in the world. Life has changed so much for me. Getting older is really sad but at least I am still alive and healthy. I do love to watch my kids enjoy being kids.

pregnancy woes

Well I had an ultrasound today....not good news. I found out that once again I have placenta previa. This is where your placenta attatches to your uterine wall way too low. This can cause several problems including preterm labor and hemmorrhage. I had the same thing with my third child Jaylee. At my final ultrasound in my nine month it at moved up so I was blessed. The end result if no changes is delivery with a c-section. I don't want that so lets keep our fingers crossed it moves up before time. I am on partial bedrest....not very strict. Just can't lift anything over 5lbs and have to take frequent bed breaks and naps. Yeah right....breaks in my house? That is not happening. There are way too many kids running around and constant mayhem going on....oh well. Lets just see how this goes.

Mom's Birthday...a true miracle

Well today is my mom's 67th birthday! I am so blessed to have her here to celebrate it. After all we have been through in the last year since her wreck we deserve a day like today. She forgets it is her birthday every few minutes as she does other things but at least she is here. She has come such a long way especially physically. We are pretty sure her memory isn't ever going to be back to normal but that is something we will deal with. I just want her to enjoy what she does have and I want her to know she is loved. The journey we traveled together is one that has taught me many life lessons and especially not to take life for granted. I called some of the family and her friends and planned a surprise party for her. It was a great turnout with lots of food and presents. She hopefully knows how much she is loved. Happy Birthday mom!