My Bug

Jaylee Madison makes me smile when I wanna frown, laugh when I wanna cry, stand up and walk when I'm ready to crawl, keep going when I wanna give up. She filled an empty spot in my soul. Although her dad and I are no longer together I will never regret meeting him because she is the greatest gift he could have ever given to me. She is my anchor....my rock!!

life

lessons learned

We must all make mistakes in our lives to learn from. Not one of us is perfect nor will be ever be. We are only human. Some mistakes will leave scars and those are the most painful. These mistakes however make us stronger and get us ready for the next mountain we need to climb!

Love Me

"I want someone who I can tell all my secrets to. Someone who won’t judge me for the mistakes I’ve made and the mistakes I continue to make. I want someone who will understand me. I want someone to hear me out, not just listen. I want someone who says good night to me and prays to God that they’ll get the chance to say good morning. I want someone who will accept me for who I am, despite all my flaws. I want someone who will wipe my tears away and make me smile when I’m down. I want someone who loves me. I just want you to be that person.

Me and my girls

Ya know life can throw us some curve balls sometimes....make us really unhappy but God gives us reasons to smile and these girls of mine are two of my reasons!!

Favorite Movie?

I love this movie....could watch it over and over!! Well, actually I do!! This is the kinda love we all wish for...except for the dying part!

Someday

I have spent 36 yrs. looking for prince charming and haven't found him yet. I wasted countless years of my life on men who were worthless. At some point I must have seen something good in them or maybe I was just settling for less than I deserved. I wanted to be loved so badly that I accepted who ever walked into my life. I spent 10yrs with a man who I thought i would spend my life with.......wasted time. A cheater, liar, manipulator, loser determined my emotions for yrs of my life. I let him determine my attitude everyday. I let him make me sad and make me cry. I was miserable. I finally found the strength inside to be free of him. After being on my own for the past two yrs I have finally learned I do not need a man in my life to give me breath. I do not need a man to make me happy. I am a very independent, strong, beautiful woman and if someday God means for me to be with someone HE will send him to me. I will not go out looking anymore. I will wait and if at 80 I am alone then that is what is meant to be. But, I will never shed another tear over a man who is not willing to wipe them away with his kisses.

I love this

“Tears are the silent language of grief”
~Voltaire

Jay's Surgery Day

Jay had her tonsils and adnoids removed finally!!! After 8 episodes of strep last year and a bout with mono. She is doing awesome and I thank God she came thru it all with no problems. She is my awesome little trooper!! Always brave! Always strong! She is my hero! Today is my dad's birthday...he would have been 71 years old. I know in some strange way today was her surgery for a reason....she had a special guardian angel!

A Way to Remember

I am creating this blog for me and for my children. I hope that someday they can look back on it and see a bit into who I really was and the things I loved. I do this to keep my sanity in this crazy ride we call life. We all need an avenue to vent our frustrations, share our dreams, escape reality. This will be a journey...a very bumpy ride I am sure. I hope you enjoy!